It doesn't matter...

...anymore. It doesn't matter what I do, what I say, when, or why. It doesn't. Someone told me that I deal in absolutes too much. I say, well, what else is there? Either you like it, or you don't. Either it is a truth or a lie. Where is the grey? Is that the compromise? I'm sure it is, but if one person feels like they are doing all the compromising and the other one isn't doing anything...then what? Then what??? I am at a place right now where I don't care about anything...and it scares me. It scares me because I don't know how to not feel like this. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to...I don't know what I want to do...I don't know. I don't know why...I just don't.


I guess I'm done...