Sunday, September 20, 2009

It doesn't matter...

...anymore. It doesn't matter what I do, what I say, when, or why. It doesn't. Someone told me that I deal in absolutes too much. I say, well, what else is there? Either you like it, or you don't. Either it is a truth or a lie. Where is the grey? Is that the compromise? I'm sure it is, but if one person feels like they are doing all the compromising and the other one isn't doing anything...then what? Then what??? I am at a place right now where I don't care about anything...and it scares me. It scares me because I don't know how to not feel like this. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to...I don't know what I want to do...I don't know. I don't know why...I just don't.

I guess I'm done...

Monday, May 25, 2009

at work...

...and I'm bored. I'm not bored due to lack of calls...but due to lack of people...there is no one here at all. All three of the people that sit by me are out today for the holiday, but because my employer is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week...someone has to be here, and today that someone is me. Granted, my shift is almost over, I've got like, one hour and fourteen minutes left...actually now there is an hour and eight minutes left...whatever....let me stop complaining, I'm getting paid double time and a half!

Be Smart or Be Smitten!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Forever and a Day...

...since I was able to call in to work and get paid for it...Amazing feeling it is. Over time I have come to realize that my life will never be the same again, and that isn't a negative's a positive truth. It should never be the same again...never. Why would I want it to be? Isn't the point of life to grow up, to figure out, reflect on the wrongs you do, and adjust and or change so that you don't repeat the same mistakes? For some reason though, the more I hear people talk, they complain about changes...Now even though change makes me feel unsettled sometimes, I would never want to go back to where I was...I'm extremely happy that I'm not in that state of mind anymore...I'm glad of the fact that everyday when I wake up, I get a whole new chance to be a better person, a whole new chance to improve, to grow mentally and's a beautiful thing.

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Friday, May 15, 2009


A couple of people at my job have a podcast radio show...and it kinda sucks. I mean, it has some potential to be good, but for some reason they keep cursing for no apparent reason at all. Not that I have something against an expletive tossed in here and there for effect...but this is just kinda pointless...It's like watching a movie, and waiting for something to happen, and it never quite happens...Even the subject matter, they don't know quite enough to keep the show interesting. It just sounds like a mediocre conversation between two people, but three people are actually there, and it's a four person annoying...

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Moment of Calm...

...and it feels good! These people on the phones are absolutely a brand new type of nuts...I know you "need" your services and all...but come on, it's just cable and internet...even with phone service, most of the people calling in have at least two other's funny but not funny...whatever. At least I have a job right?

Be Safe or Be Smitten!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Don't get me wrong...

...I know I get paid to take calls, but why must the people be so stupid? I don't get it. This lady called because her cable didn't work...come to find out her power was out...really lady?

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Feeling It...

...I'm not...I wish I was though...I just got one sale as I started this post, but otherwise today is the wackness at work...I can't wait until May 17, because then I can start taking days off...I did get my passport squared away though, so that's good...

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

My Wife amazing. I really love her, and I love our relationship. It's not always perfect, but nothing is. I mean, just the way she looks at me, her laugh, her smile, the way she puts her hair behind her ears...the way she smiles at me with her eyes...her little nose, and the fact that she can wiggle her ears. I love her SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! I don't know what my life would be like without her, I can't imagine being with anyone else...she's smart when I'm not, tough where I'm not...she is my equal opposite giver of one, my wife. A tough little woman, but scared of prayer little sweetheart with tiny little feet...I love her more than she can ever figure out. She's the person that drives me to be a better man, a better husband, a better Christian, and a better person...Overall, I truly enjoy my life...and I can't wait to see what comes in our future...

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Sunday Afternoon

...and we are at the old roomate's house having an improptu barbeque...hamburgers, hot dogs, and 'hot sausage' was cool. We're having fun, talking, laughing, complaining about the trifling church people...I miss my family, but I enjoy being with my wife and hanging out with my new life is going very well right now...

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Waiting on the Barber... open up the opened at 9 and it's 9:58 right now...trifling, right? Yeah, I know. I need to get my passport today, but I need to get my beard chopped down first, I'm not trying to look like no Super Muslim in my passport that racist? If it is I don't care, because I know they aren't profiling any black people for blowing up's super nice out today, so I am glad that I am off today...unlike next week...oh well, I'll be able to start flexing out of work soon enough...

Be Safe or Be Smitten!

Friday, April 24, 2009


Well, it's my last day of training, so Monday I'll be back on the nightshift...and that sucks. I liked coming home everyday like a normal person...I guess it'll only be for a little for's still wack, and repetitive...and redundant. I learned a little bit at the start of training, but now we are doing hookups, and I remember all this stuff from my old job at Circuit least it's Friday, right?

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Monday, April 20, 2009

OMG...this is so wack

Still training...

I'm back in training again, and I'm not really feeling it. I'm sitting next to a lonely and loud chick that is begging for attention, and across from adude that chews Marijuana gum. It's all types of wack in here...but it's still better than working at night...

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

What makes you... adult? I was thinking about this when I was ironing my shirt yesterday. It was like, as I was standing there, I just realized that I was an adult...but what qualifies me as one? To be perfectly honest, I don't feel any different than I was when I was a teenager...I know I do have a different decision making process now, and I'm way fatter than I was back then...but that's about it. I just saw myself from high school to college, college to working, and working to marriage....which isn't a bad thing, but I mean, at the risk of sounding really trite, it went by way faster than I thought it would.

I don't quite know what I expected to happen inside...I guess I just thought that something would click over, and I'd be an adult...and I suppose it did, but it just didn't happen the way I thought it would. I'm happy, I'm have a decent job...I'm very happily married...things are good. Better than good...but thinking of myself as an adult is weird. Very weird. I just thought I would be more, I dunno, old. I thought the things I like would change drastically, or that I'd start watching amc all the time...or that I'd drink tea every morning...not that amc and tea are bad things, or that they are only for old people...does anyone know what I'm talking about?

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Stuff you don't Think about... getting a haircut. It's something I never really put any thought into back home...if I needed a haircut, I would just stop by my boy's house, and it'd get taken care of. Since I've been here, I'm on my second barber now...why do you ask? What happened to the first one? He's M.I.A. I have no idea where he is...I mean, he is a good dude, but he just went off the deep end and left his parents' house over some foolishness. So now I'm get my haircut in the next town over from where I live...and these cats are tripped out. They seem nice, but tripped out...I sant even begin to explain it to you, they are truly a sight to behold...but as long as my hair is straight, I could care less...

Be Safe or Be Smitten

3 month anniversary...

...and it feels like so much longer. I'm not saying it like that's a bad just feels like I've been married forever. I can't really think of a time without's kinda weird when I think about it too much. But then again, it's all kinda weird if I think about it to much...but I do love it, I love it all...just because.

Be Safe or Be Smitten

Friday, April 10, 2009

I really have to pee...

...but instead I'm at my training desk acting like I'm working...why is that you ask? I'm trying to save that break for about 430ish, close to 5. I'm also trying to schedule more training so I can work the day shift a little bit longer...I know I really don't feel like being here right now...welpers, Happy Jesus Came back Day!

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

I actually do miss...

...blogging. It was very theraputic...helped me figure out a lot about myself, and it helped me find a's been very good to me...but living in NJ, working second shift, being has kept me busy, and it has kept me happy. I really only blogged when I was angry, or hurt, or just lost. Finding a peace in my life, something that I didn't get from drinking, or going to clubs, or even writing in this space. That's the only thing that I can see that has kept me away from blogging...but now I have a G1, so I think I'll be blogging more often now...or at least I'll try to!

Be Safe or Be Smitten!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Friendly Visits and Surprises

I know it's been a while, but I've been busy trying to unpack my stuff finally...I've been here since December, but because Liz's roomate didn't move as soon as she said she I'm just now able to unpack my suitcases and organize my stuff...stuff meaning clothes and shoes. The whole process is making this apartment feel more like home...and I love it.

This past week was Liz's birthday, and I felt bad because we weren't able to throw the skating party like we had originally planned instead I threw her a surprise dinner party at this restaurant/"club" called Swanky Bubbles...Nina came through and some of her family and friends was hard keeping the dinner from her, but I felt like I needed to do something nice for her...she deserved it. We had a lot of fun, and she was really excited about it...I'm just glad that it went over well, even though about 40% of the guests didn't show...but you can't win'em all...

My friend Jon is here visiting for a while, and I'm excited. I haven't seen him in a while, and it's nice having him around...For whatever reason, I don't really feel like writing right now, so I'll have to come back when there isn't so much going on, and I have time to really write what I'm feeling right now.

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Training Recap

Yeah, I know I haven't blogged in a while, and there is some stuff that I probably should cover...but I doubt if I will...I mean, I went to Sneakercon on the first, and I took a bunch of pictures and they are on my facebook...but I don't feel like reposting them five at a time here on blogger, and I don't really feel like talking about the experience there anymore... what is it that I'm going to blog about?


Well, I've lived in NJ since like, late December, but her roommate was still the roommate told be she was going to be gone by like, January 1st...but she stayed until around last weekend...ughh...Don't get me wrong, she's cool as a person, but horrible to live with. Just messy and lazy...I can't deal with those as a package. I could deal with a neat lazy person, or a messy person that was on the move...but both? Nope, can't do it. To be for real, I'm just glad that clothing is optional at all times's so freeing.

As for work, it is what it is. We talked about Rihanna and Chris Brown yesterday, along with the current state of the economy. We covered TO going to the Buffalo Bills, and the possibility of Micheal Vick going to the UFL. We discussed Arena Football, and 'The Opera' by RKelly...and like, one solid hour of a system that Co.mcast uses to reboot a modem. It was totally pointless.

Oh well.

Strangely enough though, I'm not really expecting things to turn south. Usually around the time stuff starts to go well, I try to brace myself for disappointment...but honestly, I think I've learned that it'll only show up if I sit around to wait for it...

BTW, yes it's like, 4am, and I wish I was sleeping, but my sinuses are on crack. I've really tried some of everything, and nothing at all is working. Nothing. And for whatever reason, no one understands. They think I'm lying or something...or that they are so much smarter than me, and that I must not have tried this, because this works for everyone! Yeah, not only have I tried that, I tried it twice, and the third time was extra strength. At this point, it feels like the only thing that will open these jokers up would be either fire or cocaine, and I'm not looking to throw either of them up my nostrils.

Please help!

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Am I Comcastic?

I'm not sure yet...but I know one thing for is next to worthless. Do you know what I did yesterday? Watched tv, talked about current events, had lunch, then I played catch for an hour...while I was at work. We really didn't even start working until about three o' was nuts. I'm not too mad about it, but it felt completely ridiculous.

Sneakercon was super dope, I took a lot of pictures and I met a lot of people...I want to post some pics online, but it's like...4:11am here right now, and I'm only posting because I felt bad...I posted them on my facebook, so if you know how to find me there, you can see them...otherwise, you'll have to wait for a little while...I met the Mayor, STASH, and DJ Clark Kent...all three are super big in the sneaker community for different reasons...If you don't know, Google will be totally worth it.

I'll try to get on tonight before I go to see 'Watchmen' and post some of the better pics of the day, and I'll also give you the breakdown on how no one wanted to buy anything, they only wanted to trade...

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Life as I know it... pretty good. I feel good for the most part, and work isn't too annoying yet...not to the point where I can't take it...but something is still bothering me.

I feel like I'm on the brink of something; on the brink of something big...I just don't know what that is yet.

I'll let you know what it is when I found out...

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I don't think I remembered...

...that training is the most boring part of work. I mean, the first few days were pretty easy, going over like, the basics of the internet and what exactly are Windows? Now we are going over the actual system, and it is getting very redundant...and when it gets redundant I get bored...but hopefully I won't feel like that tomorrow.

As for this weekend, I'm going to Manhattan with Liz and a couple of friends of ours for a sneaker convention that we are going to be in. Wish us Luck!

Monday, February 23, 2009

44 Things...

I posted this in Facebook...and I don't feel like writing tonight, but I prob will tomorrow...


1. Do you like blue cheese? with wings, sure.

2. Have you ever been drunk? Yep, sure have.

3. Do you own a gun? Nope.

4. What flavor of Kool Aid was your favorite? Grape...I know, no one ever says that...

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Not at all...

6. What do you think of hot dogs? They are ok...but better when I'm super hungry.

7. Favorite Christmas movie? Charlie Brown Christmas...Christmas Story is hilarious too though...

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee or water

9. Can you do push ups? I can, but I don't try very often.

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My ring.

11. Favorite hobby? Finding dope sneaks for cheap...and blogging.

12. Do you have A.D.D.? Nah, I just don't pay attention to stuff very long.

13. What's your favorite shoe? As of late, my Appetite for Destruction Dunk Lows, and my Back to School scribble dunk highs

14. Middle name? James

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? Why do I feel like I need to throw up? My shins are cold. When are my new sneakers gonna be here?

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Water, coffee, and as of late, Ginger Ale

17. Current worry? Finding a new car...

18. Current hate right now? People that get in my business, especially when they don't know me.

19. What do you wish for in the coming year? Happiness

20. How did you bring in the New Year? At Church...

21. Where would you like to go? Japan, England, Italy, France, Russia, China...and Kenya.

22. who are the people who will complete this? Jon will eventually...that's about it.

24. What color shirt are you wearing right now? Black

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I really never have, but I think it would be like sleeping on a woman's head scarf...Do all black chicks use Motions Hair Conditioner?

26. Can you whistle? Yes...but I guess it'll only be useful if my daughter wins the Oscar for Best Actress.

27. Favorite color? Black

28. Would you be a pirate? Nope...scurvy isn't fly.

29. What songs do you sing in the shower? Don't Trust them new Niggas over there!

30. Favorite girl's Name? Sasha

31. Favorite boy's name? Rufus...but that's really what I want to name my dog.

32. What's in your pocket right now? My cell phone.

33. Last thing that made you laugh? The fact that our trainer had us watch Justin Timberlake's 'Cry me a River' music video as a class for no apparent reason at all.

34. Best bed sheets as a child? I don't really remember...I think they were kinda regular, except for the fact that they usually didn't match.

35. Worst injury you've ever had as a child? I broke my femur when I was about 9 or was bad news.

36. What are your plans for the future? Get another car, get a passport, and stack some dough.

37. Do you walk around the house naked? I do when I know the roomate is gone...when she is gone for good, it's Freeballin' 2009!

38. Who is your loudest friend? Liz

39. How many dogs do you have? None; but I prob will have one after a while.

40. Does someone have a crush on you? Yeah, my trainer at work...she's a weirdo.

41. What is your favorite book? Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

42. What is your favorite candy? Skor's super old.

43. Favorite Sports Team? I like the White Sox, the Bears, and the Bulls...but the Cubs can kick rocks.

44. Do you feel fat? Only when I walk next to skinny people.

Be Safe or Be Smitten

Saturday, February 21, 2009


My friend just had his second kid, a baby girl named Khloe...I mean, he and his wife both have K-names, so they decided to name their kids with k-names...yeah, I know it's gay...

...but it got me to thinking: What type of father would I be? I would hope that I'm stern, but fair. Open, but have the boundries of respect in their proper places. Have rules, but let them have a little freedom...I...I really just don't know. I know I will have children, and I feel that I would be a good father, I just don't know what type I'd's so much...even just thinking about it. There is SOOOOOOOOO much that goes into raising a little person...even thinking about it brings tears to my's, it's a nice feeling...but it's weird at the same time. I guess all I can really do is just put God first, and he'll help me raise my kids...I just want to do right by them, give them a good life, and make sure they have all the tools they need to go out into the world and be productive adults.

That's not too much, right?

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

It's Comcastic!

Well, I started at Comcast this week, and despite the fact that I have to dress business casual, it isn't that bad. There are a lot of negro faces...which was kinda surprising, and most of the trainers are black as well...but my training class is like, 2/3 white...but it's still ok. The class isn't boring, and honestly, it feels like I'm in high school...but still, the days go by fairly quick, and I'm getting paid for really doing nothing...which is good. I wanted to catch up on blogger here...but I am getting really paranoid about being late...even though I don't need to be there until 9, I feel like I should be dressed now...weird, right?

V-Day was super dope...the best I've ever had by far, and the first where I actually tried to do something for the person that I was with...

I mean, I've given V-Day cards before, but I never really cared about what they said, I just use to make sure they didn't say I loved them in it...and make sure that they were under 3 bucks. So getting a nice card, getting reservations, and trying to have an itinerary was kinda taxing...but it worked out...sort of. I made the reservations like, in the middle of January...for real...and originally, I was going to take Liz to the Franklin Institute...which is a science based mueseum in Philly. Well, Liz took me to the Franklin for my birthday, so I couldn't really take her there I'm like, either the art mueseum or maybe some other random I was gonna do both. I was going to take her to the Rodin mueseum...which is where the sculpture 'The Thinker' is located...and take her to the Philadelphia Mueseum of Art...which is where Rocky runs up the stairs...but I didn't have time for both because they both closed at 5...I was kinda annoyed about that. The Rodin said they had free parking on their site RIGHT BEHIND the mueseum...get to the lot. So we paid like, 3 bucks for an hour on the parking meter. Went in...had nerdy fun...and barely escaped being on 'Parking Wars'...

We had to go home and change clothes for two reasons: The reservation was at 9, and they required Elegant Casual dress...and I still don't know what that requires to this day...

We got to the restaurant like, 20 minutes early, got Valet...just to wait for an hour and 20 minutes...the food was amazing, and the wait staff was the best I've ever seen...but what tripped me out is that they sat all of the black people in the same area...and the cat that sat behind us had on jeans, sneakers, and a Rockawear sweater. I'm not sure how that qualified as Elegant Casual, but who am I to judge? He had some great lines for his date to, like, "Baby, you can have some of the finest and most delicious of the wines and champagnes here." Or the great, "We don't have to get something from the menu...get whatever will make you happy." Now these quotes may not sound that bad in text form, but dude looked and sounded like Percy Miller...yeah, Master P. It was hilarious...I mean, the stuff they had you could get at Olive Garden...I was like, what was the point? Then at the end of the meal, we find out dude knows the chef personally, called him by name, hugged him, and they got their meal for free with a dessert sampler because he sends them so much business! I was so tripped out, for real...

So we leave without leftovers because everything was so good...and the truck didn't feel felt like the tire was low...but I drove home anyway saying that I'd just go get air the next day...what happens? We get outside and there is a screw sticking out of the sidewall of the tire. The sidewall. The only place you can get a screw that cannot be fixed...I was so pissed...then on top of that, the part of the jack that you need to make it work was not in the truck!!! The jack was there, the extension poles were there...but the crowbar was not. I jacked it up part way with my hand and then a strong screwdriver, just so the weight of the truck wouldn't bend the rim...then one of Liz's friends came by and I was able to change the flat in like, 5 minutes...but overall it was a very interesting weekend. The best Vday I've ever had...ever.

Be Safe or Be Smitten!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Tuesday's Thoughts

I'm not sad, I'm not in a bad mood at all...I'm not angry...

I'm sitting here on the couch, with my wife's little feet propped up on my thigh...and as I look over at her...I know I'm ok. I know I can live my dreams, I know that things aren't always going to go as planned, but they will go as they are ordered. I know my life isn't a dream, but I do have my little dreamsicle here to remind me that anything is possible. Dreams do come true...If you asked me this time last year, I would've never said that I would be in New Jersey, let alone be married...and I would not have even thought I would be ready...but I guess I am. I mean, I'm not having second thoughts, I'm just saying I didn't know that I would able to be a husband already; I never knew that the potential was there...

I just looked at my blog from this time last year, and I was giving up on sex and dating...not that I was turning gay, I just didn't feel like anyone was worth the time or efforts...

I'm just really, really happy. Really happy...and I'm glad that I have someone that I can love, someone that can make me smile whenever I look at her...someone that I can truely be myself with, and not worry about what they think about it. Someone that loves me for who I am, and not what I can do for them...someone that just...just cares, respects, and appreciates's priceless.

...and I'm glad God cared enough about me to place her in my life.

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Another Monday...

...but the last on the couch. I start working next Monday. I'm kinda excited, and I'm kinda not excited...I dunno. I hate the fact that I have to dress business casual though...that is going to be very annoying...oh well. It's a job, and I'll get use to it.

I thought I'd have more to write about today, but I guess I don't...oh well. Maybe I'll try again later.

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me...

I am going to post about my birthday, but boy...someone did something yesterday to annoy the daylights out of me...but I'm going to post about that later...

As for my Birthday? It was fantastic! We kinda had a nerdy day though, but what can I say...I'm a nerd, and so is my wife...but whatever. Anyway, we went to the Franklin Institute in Philadelphia, and it was so much fun. It has a bunch of science based exhibits, and they had the Narnia exhibit up showing a bunch of stuff from the movie, along with some things that were owned by CS Lewis. I haven't been to the museum since I was in like, fourth grade, so it was very enjoyable going through looking at things, trying out stuff, and reading about the exhibits...we also went to the Planetarium, to which I've never done before. Ever. I really enjoyed it though...and honestly, I would've been happy staying there to watch the next two shows and missing dinner...almost. After the museum, we went to dinner back in Jersey at Catelli's. That had to be the best dinner I have had in a long, long time...easily in the top five restaurant experiences in my life...I had a cheddar broccoli soup, baby crab cakes, a 14 ounce veal chop stuffed with lobster, spinach, and cheese over a bed of mashed potatoes with gravy that included asparagus and was delicious. For desert, I had a waffle with homemade ice cream topped with walnuts, chocolate and caramel sauce. The waffle by itself had the best texture and flavor of any waffle I have ever had in my was wonderful. It was soooo great. My family even sent me beautiful cards with monetary gifts in closed...this was one of the best birthdays I can remember...

As for what annoyed me?

This wack dude that happens to be Liz's ex left some hater facebook comments on a pic of us...actually the pic of us that is in my profile here. I mean, it could've been funny if he was actually his friend, but he is not...not even it came off like, what is the point? Are you jealous? Are you really that much of a loser that you have nothing else to do but hate on me and my wife??? I really wanted to snatch his vocal cords right out of his throat so he would have nothing else to say...he has no idea what I am capable of...anyway, after I cooled off a bit, some wise words came to mind...

"Live your m'fing life. Get your hustle on. Understand people are gonna hate you regardless. Get that out of your head, that fantasy world where people ain't hating on you. You gotta be grateful. You need haters. WTF you complaining about. WTF do you think a haters job is? To f'ing hate. So let them do their damn job. WTF you complaining about. Ladies if you got 14 women hating on you, you need to figure out how the hell to get to 16 before the summer gets here. WTF you mad about. Fellas, if you got 20 haters, you need 40 of those m'fers. WTF you complaining about. If there are any haters in here right now that don't have anybody to hate on, feel free to hate on me. Sit back and say my hair ain't luxurious when you know it is, bitch."


So, if dude has nothing else to do, that is on him. I have no ill words or actions for him, because he is just doing what he was designed to do...hate.

In other news:

This is really up here just for Liz, but it is HILARIOUS if you are a Scrabble player...

Be Safe or Be Smitten...

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Happy Birthday Eve!

To me...

I've never really had big celebrations for my birthday...well, at least as far as I can remember. I mean, my parents always did something for me, and my grandma usually would bake me a cake or something...and it was cool. I always appreciated what they did for me...and it would always be thoughtful.

...but my friends just never really cared. That's why I know I really don't have too many friends. You know how people claim to have like, 10-15 "good" friends? I can't understand how that is you might have 10 people that keep tabs on you just because they think you are cool...and like 2 more that hang around you because they are sponging off of your aura...and really only like, 3 people that truly love you like you are a blood relative, and care about your well-being. They will be the ones that check on you just to check on you...does anyone know what I mean?

I know I really only have three true, down for me friends...and one of them I married.

I don't know.

I usually get kinda down around my birthday thinking about all the failed opprotunities of the past year, and reflect on things that I would do differently...and because no one really remembers my birthday makes me feel like I don't do much to leave an imprint on their lives...even though lots of people pull on me to help them fix themselves. It's like they treat me as if I'm a service instead of a person.

I'm sure this year will be different.

Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Monday, February 02, 2009

Mind Fart

Dude...I really didn't feel like writing earlier, but I've been inspired...and I'll tell you what inspired me after I do a weekend recap:

I had a great weekend with Liz. On Saturday, we went to the Auto Show...which was kinda wack. I really like cars, and I usually enjoy the auto show, but I don't know if it's just a bad year for cars or if the one in Chicago is just that much better...but it was just a disappointment. I enjoyed the DUB section, and they had some old cars there, and they were cool...but it just wasn't like the auto shows of are some of the pics from the show:

...overall, I enjoyed it...but I think it had more to do with the company I was keeping than the cars that were there.

Afterward, I went to Joe's Peking Duck in Philadelphia, and it was AMAZING! Everything from the soup to the fried chocolate cake was delicous. I had duck, lobster...all of it was wonderful.

On Sunday, we went to Maryland and watched the game with the family, and it was fun...

...but why am I posting???

Why in the world is this cat on the real world saying he's a woman, and how is he fooling anyone? And why was there a whole episode going on and on about someone telling people that he is a transexual before he was ready to tell...How can they not know that this is a man??? He def does not look like any chick I've ever is getting retarded...

Be Safe or Be Smitten.