Still???

I REALLY don't have too much on my mind right now other than the business ventures I'm involved with. I mean, it takes up most of my time when I am at work online...It's cool and everything, but I don't think it should consume most of my time. I don't know. But at least I don't have anything to complain about. And, this time last year, I had no aspirations to go into a business venture, let alone multiple ventures...

I don't know...

Sometimes, I just don't know what is going on in my head. Like right now, I'm considering doing some work with this artist I met. He draws in a similar fashion as I do, but with a little more anime influenced styling tacked on. We talked, he seems cool...I might go ahead and do some work with him. And on the other side, I'm in the talks with a local coffee house on doing a website for them. Granted, I didn't design this one, but I could have. I'm also still working with another business partner on a label that we're coming out with, CamoSoul. I can say it now that there is a patent on it...and it has been established with the BBB...so, I'm a little preoccupied. Plus, I'm still working on being a published poet. It's going to happen in the soon future, it's just the anticipation of the thing that bothers me. I don't know. That's all I can say right now. I'm still designing a logo for my personal company that I haven't quite decided what it is going to be. I may just do t-shirts and other stuff of that nature...possibly jackets and hats...I'm not sure yet. We'll see...no one ever said that decision making is easy, or at least I think no one has ever said that...

Are You Serious?

You know, I'm fine with being by myself right now...although it can be difficult at times. But, it seems like even if I wanted to have a relationship, the only ones that seem interested are either 35 and up, or my age with four kids. Don't get me wrong, I can understand the hardships of being a single mom, and I can almost understand having a kid by accident, but having FOUR by accident? Come on!!! Then I have had a 27, 38, 42, and a 44 year old want to "have a relationship" with me. I don't know what type of relationship they expect, especially when I want to get married and have kids. The 27 year old, well, she's ok, but I can't really understand her all the time when she talks. She's Hispanic and has a REALLY thick accent, and isn't always grammatically correct, so sometimes it is hard to decipher what she is saying. I still don't really want a relationship right now, I really don't have the time to devote to a relationship right now. I'm still getting my affairs in order. I think it is better to be "by myself" and a work in progress than to be with someone and have them feel neglected. It's just kinda frustrating to have all of these opportunities but they are all kinda bad, you know? Even if I did have all of my stuff together, the only one that I could possibly date would be the 27 year old, and even with her I don't really have too much to talk to her about. We really don't have anything in common. Plus, she is a party girl. She likes to go out, drink, dance, and whatever...I'm not really into that scene. I don't drink anymore, I was never really a club person, so what are we going to do? I guess this is just a way of reminding me that I am a desirable person, and when my time comes along, I'll be able to find someone that is on my level...besides, if this wasn't happening, I'd probably be complaining about no one being interested in me...

John Legend

I just ordered his live CD off of his website and it is great...simple, but great. It's just him singing and playing the piano. I do recommend it to anyone who enjoys NeoSoul, or stuff of that nature...

Oh wow...

You know, I have said from time to time that I'm really busy nowadays...I have my two jobs, church, I'm revamping my resume' to apply for a "for real" job with benefits...I'm trying to keep up my house...there is a lot to do, oh yeah, and I have to REST sometimes...I heard that it helps sustain life along with food and water...but some people don't get that. Just because I don't call my friends every day doesn't mean that I don't care about them...I am 21 years old, I don't sell or smoke crack, I don't have thirteen babies, and I'm obviously not in jail...but I DO have matters to attend to. So EXCUSE ME FOR HAVING A LIFE!!! I'm not a social worker, I'm not a counselor, I'm not a psychologist...If I was, I'd make much more money than I do now...so why is it such a BIG DEAL that I don't call all of my friends all of the time??? MOST OF THEM understand that I actually have AFFAIRS TO GET IN ORDER!!! Come on with the pity party crap! I understand that we all need people to talk to, people to give you advice...but sometimes you have to remember that the only two people you will always have to help you are Jesus and yourself. Putting your faith in men will always lead to downfall...but you know that already, don't you??? That's what you always say...I was going to say your name, but it really isn't necessary...you know who you are. If you don't, then too bad...you just need to understand that just because you made some retarded comments to me doesn't mean that I don't want to talk to you anymore, I'm just really busy. Yeah, you pissed me off when you said what you said, and I don't agree with what you said, and I STILL think you were wrong for hanging up on my mother, which you did...my mom is not slow, she can tell when someone is sitting there breathing on the phone...I STILL think you were wrong for sleeping with my friend...and no it's not jealousy, I've been with you in the past, I'm not with you now, it really doesn't matter as far as that is concerned, but I do know that from your past experiences that you CAN'T HANDLE SEX!!! You always have a blowout with the person, sometimes immediately, sometimes much later, but you always have some sort of blowout. I remember you saying the same type of stuff about Tim, saying to yourself that you didn't have to love him to sleep with him...you can't lie to yourself for very long...and I hope you do realize that is the year 2004, and people DO catch STDs...they are real. But you know that already...and since you say you don't feel bad anymore, think about this...there is story in the bible, old testament, and again, I'm sure you already know, about two sisters...one was a harlot, but she didn't know any better...her younger sister saw the ways of the older, and still became a harlot just like her, but far worse. Eventually, God turned her over to her sin, and she was murdered...Now, I'm not saying you are following behind someone else, I'm not saying that you are a harlot, and I'm not saying that you are going to be murdered...but what I am saying is that the younger sister knew better, as do you know better, so because of that, God eventually said, "I guess she doesn't care anymore..." and let her go out on her own, without his covering on her, and she lost her life...you need to repent, be sorry for what you have done, mend up your life, renew your life with Christ, and your situation will brighten...but you know that already. And just as a sidenote: If you know how to spell my name, then why did you spell it wrong twice? Also, I left it as maybe you don't know how to edit your posts after you post them...but you have since revised another post you did just after the one about my mother...so obviously you don't care enough to even go back and fix the title...How would you feel I named this post "The Dayerden Chronicles" or something just as stupid...I don't think you would like that...you don't even like it when someone who DOESN'T EVEN KNOW YOU misspells your name. And your name isn't even a common one. Most people would misspell your name simply based on the fact that they thought it was an error...Come on now...and you wonder why that bothered me?

P.S. I don't know who wrote that bullet comment, and I don't agree with them either...that was really bogus...