Welpers...

I'm finally here!


It's offically done. I live in New Jersey. I got here about 8:00pm est...and I wasn't really tired...until now. I'm gonna shower, then hit the hay. I'll tell you about the adventure tomorrow, I promise!

Moving...

...and it's horrible. I need to have movers next time for sure...I can't do this again. I have more to say, but I'm feeling distracted, so I may post it later...oh yeah...







I'M ENGAGED!!!



Be Safe of Be Smitten.

Christmas Time Thoughts/Moving Away

It's December 26th, and, well, I don't quite know what to do with myself. I had a good time with my family yesterday, but as we unwrapped our presents, I started to realize something...I'm leaving them. Bear with me here, I'm not crazy, but for whatever reason, while I watched my grandma's face light up with excitement as she gave her presents the once over, it hit me like a right cross. I love my family, and I am going to miss them terribly.

I'm going to miss them all. I'm going to miss watching 'The Rifleman' with my grandpa...(btw, I LOVE that show!!!), I'm going to miss eating breakfast on Saturday morning with my grandma while we watch QVC and PBS...talking about man stuff and just picking up gems of wisdom from my father...and watching my mother turn into a Wii fanatic.


The more time I spend with each and every one of them, I see a piece of me. I see what time, care, and love they have deposited in me throughout the time I have been with them. I see the mannerisms I've picked up, the habits, the quirks, facial expressions, or even my outlook on life at times. I know my family isn't perfect, and no one's family is...but it is MY family, and I love them. Through the good, the bad, and the ugly, my life with them has helped mold me into who I am one way or another...or they've helped me recognize parts of myself that isn't pleasant so I can change. I just feel an overwhelming love in my heart for each one of them, to the point that I want to pack them into a box, and take them to New Jersey with me...but I can't. I can't take them with me, but I can take what they have taught me, I can take the memories with me...and I can still call...but you can't give a hug through the phone, and if you wipe tears away with your cell phone you may hurt yourself....

It's just hard. I don't regret the decision to move, no matter how hastily I made it, but I...I just love them, and I don't want them to feel like I'm abandoning them, or I'm moving away from them. I love them so much...so much.



...I just feel like moving is something that I have to do right now in order for the rest of my life to start...and I know it isn't going to be easy, but it's something that I have to do right now.


Be Safe or Be Smitten.

Moving...and it's not fun.

I'm packing my life away, and I'm starting to realize how much stuff I have...or maybe I should say, how much I really DON'T have. I don't have nearly as much stuff as I thought. Besides sneakers and clothes, there isn't really much else...I'm selling my Crown Vic for $800, so if anyone out there knows someone or needs a car in the Chicago area...let me know!

Christmas Time is Here?!?

...and I haven't really shopped for anybody yet. I'm gonna go next Wednesday when, hopefully, most people are at work still. I really don't like shopping in the crowds...it's very, very annoying.

Otherwise, I'm getting myself ready for the big move to NJ. I'm really looking forward to it, even though I will miss my family and friends here in the Chicago area.


It's just been a strange feeling...especially when people feel like I'm rushing into something. I'm really not, and if I am, well, I'll pay for it. I understand and appreciate concern, but just because you ask me the same question more than once doesn't mean my answer is going to change. There have only been a few things in my life that I have never felt a question with, and this is one of them...some things you just know, and I wish more people understood that.


Also, I'm trying to get some writing work for various blogs, so please keep me in your prayers!


I loves y'all, and as always,

Be Safe or Be Smitten!

Thanksgiving Redux

It's my last day here in the NJ/PA area, and I'm starting to get sad...I really don't want to go home, but I have to. I have to get some things together first...and after that, I'm moving. But I didn't start this post to talk about that...I actually wanted to say that I feel perfectly fine moving here now. I mean, I felt alright about it before, but I still had some jitters about a few things...now though, I feel fine. Everything that I had an uncertinty about has melted away, and I know for sure that this place can be my home.


Am I going to miss my family? Of course I will, but in order for me to be the man that they have raised me to be, I have to move...I have to move into the rest of my life, so I can be the person I was born to be, and be there for my future wife and for my parents...I just hope they understand that.


Be safe or Be smitten.