Status

What is the big deal about status? Everyone either wants it, or they are bragging about it to someone else. Whether it's church, work, or even in small-talk, someone is always talking about their own personal status. Then, after the initial introduction of the topic, the other person tries to say that their status is higher, or better...It's annoying. I read once that the wisest man of all is the one that truly believes that he knows nothing. This is very true, but one should also realize that if you must proclaim your position to everyone, it must not hold as much weight as you think...or that you just have low self-esteem. Maybe one day people will realize that life isn't all about them, it's about your role and true destiny, then fulfilling it. Not that my Excursion is better than your Escalade...or my island is better than your penthouse. You know? Then you also have the people that think they can do everything because they are good at a couple things. For instance, just because my father is a musician, does that mean he can build a suspension bridge? No...but people with egos the size of Nebraska think they can...I don't get it...maybe I'm not suppose to get it, but it get frustrating sometimes.

On a sidenote:

The Real World SUCKS this year!!! I should've been on the cast for Philly. They need someone with some sense on the show...maybe that is one of the requirements now, have no sense...oh well...

ICHTHYS

I have been meaning to post this a LONG time ago...This particular website, and its readings, have been helping me along with my spiritual growth. There is a wealth of knowledge available from the teachings in the books that he makes available on his site. I hope that it helps some of you all as it has helped me. Also, check out bible.com and dictionary.com...those two sites help for getting Greek and Hebrew translations and it'll help you define words or acronyms that you may not know...

The Infamous Color Quiz...

I just took the Color Quiz...I'm wondering if they are right...

Here are the results:

Your Existing Situation
Insecure. Seeks roots, stability, emotional security, and an environment providing greater ease and fewer problems.


Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains his attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off his feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he must know exactly where he stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against his own tendency to be too trusting.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Circumstances are such that he feels forced to compromise for the time being if he is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.
The situation is preventing him from establishing himself, but he feels he must make the best of things as they are.


Your Desired Objective
Seeks affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Desires an intimate union, in which there is a love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust.


Your Actual Problem
Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. Is therefore seeking a relationship providing peaceful and understanding intimacy, and in which each knows exactly where the other stands.

Is 21 old?

I feel like an old man. I already have a set routine. I wake up, get ready, go to one job, go to the other, then go home. I go to church twice a week, but that's it. I don't go out. Ever. I mean, I do have the occasional outing with my parents or my grandma, or both; but other than that, nothing. It gets depressing sometimes. Not that I want to go out and party it up or anything. I just haven't really been anywhere. Haven't seen my friends outside of church functions in months. I know why it is like this, but it still isn't something that I like. I don't know anymore. I don't really know anything. I have an understanding for certian subject matters, or even some situations, but I don't know anything. It's hard to realize that sometimes.

What's the Deal???

I'm here at College of Lake County, doing nothing like always...but the whole Dollar General thing is still bothering me. They told me now that I have nothing to worry about, but this cat is still not fired yet. Come On!!! Now we all KNOW that if my black butt stole a Reese's Cup, I mean a singular cup, I'd be in prison with Simon Adebisi from HBO's Oz. But, that's neither here nor there. I don't want to say they are "protecting their own" but it sure looks like it. At least the blame isn't on me like it was before.

Well, it could be worse...

At my fantastic job at Dollar General, I am now the cashier when it's an all-guy shift. They say it's because I have better people skills, but I think it's because they just don't like "cashiering," if that's even a noun...but anyway, I was at the register. At the end of the day, the old manager said that both my drawer and his brother's girlfriend's drawer were even, (isn't that kinda suspicious that she works for her boyfriend's brother???), but the petty cash was short by fifty dollars. So, since it wasn't short from my register, I left and went home. The next day I came in, and the new manager said that Brian, (the old manager), said that my drawer was short fifty dollars...I KNEW I didn't take the money, so I wasn't worried. It just concerned me that this was brought to me like that...I told her what went down the other night before I left, told her that his brother is in rehab, so the girlfriend is coming up short for rent money, and I also told her that he said before I left that I was not short, and to not worry about it. So she reviewed the tape with my suggestion, (I mean, I had nothing to hide, so why not?), she saw that I did not take any money from the register, so I was in the clear...and that's good, but still. That guy is a racist liar, so I'm really not feeling him at all right now. I know I'm still suppose to forgive, but I really won't forget this.

Labor Day...

I am feeling a little better about having my schedule maxed out. I mean, it could always be worse. I have two jobs, I have friends, and I am comfortable right now. My "holiday" wasn't too fantastic. I stayed home all day until it was time for me to go to work at Dollar General. I believe that Dollar General has a really, intricate management selection process. I believe that they either get people that either have had absolutely no retail experience at all or just people who flunked out of micro-management school. They have no concept of how to schedule people ahead of time. The schedule doesn't usually come out until one day after the schedule is supposed to start. For instance, my schedule for this week was suppose to come out on Thursday, it started on Saturday, but hopefully, I will find out what it is on Tuesday when I get in. They have no concept of what it is to call people to let them know their hours have been cut, and usually when you are scheduled, they only have a very VAUGUE idea of what it is they wanted you to do. But other than that, it's nice. Well, if I don't mind getting paid thirty-five cents a day. Well, like I said, it could be worse.

At least I'm shaving the debt I have away nickel by nickel. My battles with myself are getting better. After each round, I have less blood to mop up that came out of my spirit man. The thing that makes the fight so difficult is that it seems like my flesh never gets tired...I probably lost most of you by now, but that's okay...Just know that I have more faith in my future now than I've ever had, and that's cool...

Hey, aren't church people suppose to be compassionate???

I go to Christian Faith Fellowship Church in Zion, Illinois. It's a great place to go for fellowship, worship, and most of all, for the Pastoral leadership. But, just like anywhere else, it does have its drawbacks. One is this: My friend Isaiah is an International student here on a Student Visa, they agreed to pay for his schooling, and now they are backing out. I am really upset about this...this is ridiculous...they knew what they were signing up for when they brought him here...what's the deal? I don't want to see him go back. I was just wondering if there was anything that I could do. I don't have the money to pay for his classes, but there has to be something that I could do...like some type of fundraiser. He needs four thousand a semester, which isn't that bad for a pre-med student, but still... If anyone knows of any International Student scholarship, or if even anyone knows where he can get a job that will pay "under the table" in the Waukegan/Zion/North Chicago area...that would be most appreciated. He REALLY NEEDS the money...