Happy Birthday Eve!

To me...



I've never really had big celebrations for my birthday...well, at least as far as I can remember. I mean, my parents always did something for me, and my grandma usually would bake me a cake or something...and it was cool. I always appreciated what they did for me...and it would always be thoughtful.


...but my friends just never really cared. That's why I know I really don't have too many friends. You know how people claim to have like, 10-15 "good" friends? I can't understand how that is possible...now you might have 10 people that keep tabs on you just because they think you are cool...and like 2 more that hang around you because they are sponging off of your aura...and really only like, 3 people that truly love you like you are a blood relative, and care about your well-being. They will be the ones that check on you just to check on you...does anyone know what I mean?

I know I really only have three true, down for me friends...and one of them I married.


I don't know.


I usually get kinda down around my birthday thinking about all the failed opprotunities of the past year, and reflect on things that I would do differently...and because no one really remembers my birthday makes me feel like I don't do much to leave an imprint on their lives...even though lots of people pull on me to help them fix themselves. It's like they treat me as if I'm a service instead of a person.


I'm sure this year will be different.


Be Safe or Be Smitten.