Whatever I am

Now I know I wrote a heartfelt post yesterday, but now I can't help myself. Yesterday, I went to visit my dad, and he was watching Casino Royale...it was in HD and they just started the poker scene, so I decided to stay for a bit and watch it. Toward the end, James says something that startled me...something I didn't remember...and something that I didn't expect from a Bond film.



"I have no armour left. You've stripped it from me. Whatever is left of me, whatever is left of me; whatever I am...I'm yours."


That sums it up. Sometimes after analyzing, and critizing my own decisions, my own mistakes, the person that I have edited, the person that I have become after remolding who I am...I forget what I started with. Of course not all of the changes were bad, but I honestly, I honestly don't remember who I use to be before my first hurt...the one that broke my heart; misused my trust. Lowered my confidence...you know. I mean, I know, I KNOW who I am, I just mean I don't know where I started. I don't remember what I was initially...but whatever I am now; I belong to Liz. Does that make me a bitch, maybe. Maybe it just makes me loyal. Maybe it just makes me committed. Maybe it just makes me smart...maybe it makes me all of these things, I don't know. What I do know is though, I know I'm in love with the person that I'm with, and there isn't anything anyone can say to me about her...for real.


I just am.